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  1. At birth my parents who created me gave me two birth certificates, with different names, so I continued to use a variety of names throughout my life, thanks to the pattern they set in motion.
  2. I was born with a full head of curly red hair, which still grows abundantly today at age fifty-six. My hair always makes me smile.
  3. I was born with spina bifida and scoliosis, and my clavicle was surgically Removed when I was six months old, because it was growing into my neck.
  4. In addition to those conditions, the experts/medical people, didn’t think that I was really going to survive, so they experimented on me with a series of surgical Procedures, usually a couple times every year, I ‘d spend time in the hospital Up until they decided they couldn’t or wouldn’t do anything more, to untwist me, Which was about the age of 16.
  5. At age 7, I had what they call an exploratory surgery, where they cut open my belly and removed a tumor, that very much looked like a female twin sibling , growing slowly inside of me, which happens to 1 in 14,million children born,
  6. Needless to say, growing up I looked funnier than I do now, so I was often called a lot of names and had a lot to get over to be well, but I thank my lucky stars I have healed from all of the projections… and see the beauty in being me-we with many names of a good god, befitting my heart.
  7. At age eleven, I was very angry and like in a movie I saw pulled out a knife to threaten a bully classmate, and got suspended from school.
  8. My father took me to a hypnotherapist, and a martial arts school, for the training that actually saved my life and gave me a strong foundation, to grow and focus.
  9. Both my parents smoked, I was raised in a smoke filled room, and began doing so my self at age 14, until they were both dead then I quit, seeing the handwriting on the wall, and not wanting to go out that way.
  10. Read autobiography of a yogi… by Yogananda and was so inspired by the way he died, I decided that’s how I want to go from this world when I pass on.
  11. At this time I also decided that I will stay twice as long as my parents, so I’ve chosen despite predictions of an early death, to remain until I reach my 95th Birthday… to show others they too can realize the beloved within themselves.
  12. At age 28 my spine was collapsing and going to crush my heart soon. So the medical people, broke all my vertebras’ and stretched me 3and a half inches, And then took bone off my hips, and two steel titanium rods, and placed them with 8 hooks, and wire wrapped them to each side of my spine, put me in a body cast and sent me home to heal.
  13. I spent 3 and half years in a body cast, plus 3 more years in a removable brace, At which point I really couldn’t stand very well or be comfortably as most of the Muscles had atrophied by then.
  14. I recall the surgery even to this day; I had a death experience that just seemed to Go on and on and on. I experienced the Tibetan book of the dead in living color And slow motion with a bit of the “Ground hogs day Movie” thrown in so I ‘d Get all the deeper meanings to “It’s a good Life” and it’s your responsibility…
  15. Many people I met latter experimented with some substance called ecstasy. For me I experienced agony so intense when they cut my spine apart, my My brain went into ecstasy, and filled me with pure luv , which has sustained Me and kept me from totally giving up… Although there were many challenges I learned to love and accept myself, restore and rebuild with the resources Available. Now I am twice as old as I was back then, and the world of healing & health in general has evolved … 28 years ago the Surgeon said I’ve maybe Given you 15 more year to live, I’m sorry I can’t help anymore than this, you’ll Have to learn to live on your own as you can… bye. So a couple years back I stopped into to see him in Chicago, to thank him and predict that I’ll be dancing on His grave.
  1. After about a year of my body rejecting the metal rods I began walking with No shoes on and actually connected my feet to the earth and began feeling the Energy that we call chi or ki, real healing energy… so grateful to find out there was More value to the martial arts training, than just self-esteem.
  2. From where I was sitting there was nowhere else to go but up from there. So I started studying everything about getting into the body, I went to Experience seminars, gurus, healthy mind embodiment, many ways to the Same place… Started to work on getting a PH.D… at the beginning of that time But realized that I no longer was driven, nor able to think in the ways of old.
  3. I decided to follow in John Steinbeck footsteps after reading, “Travels with Charley.” My dog and I got a van and traveled around the USA for 16 month at a Time… several times and did healing touch, cranial sacred bodywork and crystal Layout healings where ever spirit lead us. People everywhere would open up and Share keys to their homes and their kingdoms.
  4. I started healing with touch because my father had a bad back, my mom had a Picture of me doing energy work on a friends dog at age 4, which is why I Gravitated to the Dogzen teachings handed down from the great masters.
  5. Before I had that last surgery, I finished and sent to the library of congress My first book of poetry titled “Reality Is A Conventional Fantasy World: Welcome To Mine”, I thought to leave something behind to share with others before I die, So I did Zen and I am still here… The cosmic yoke… ha ha in the heart.’
  6. I have been blessed to receive many transmissions over the many years I’ve been walking this path from many masters and all are worthy of mentioning , perhaps someday in a book ,
  7. In the last ten years I’ve spent more time in one place, looking into the heart. Painting hearts, looking at everyone I meet and or treat with luv… the kind that is Devine…so far I’ve painted five thousand pieces with the intent to complete 10,000 By the time I transition…. And I am having so much fun with my art some day I look forward to being able to share my creations with the children of the world .
  8. I truly enjoy the art of the heart, which also lead to the creation of Sunny Hearts Garden, a non-for profit now six years old, intent on creating Sanctuary & teaching alternative way and means to live life fully in the heart. We are looking for a parcel of land to be donated to create a healing arts community in southern California to bless and steward .
  9. I serve the beloved and it’s a funny thing that if I just show up most everything works even the miracles’ happen as the journey continues far beyond my wildest dreams . Like in the movie “Karate Kid” a student of 22 years and I were sitting in a Chinese restaurant and she recalls the movie and our relationship and said bet you can’t catch a fly with those, chop sticks. Immediately of course I did and she said you couldn’t do that again in a million years as I tossed the fly away and grabbed it again… that was Karin Pine; she is in my face book of friends.
  10. Wow, what a rich life I’ve had, I feel like I’m just getting started sharing … cosmic joke as I am leading a good life now and it just gets better and there is so much more to do and we’ve only just begun, just the tip of the ocean melting the ice berg …eh and a big ha ha here.